I have decided I need to live a little. There are so many occasions where I turn down invites or don’t do something fun because I feel that I need to be productive. My mom has been telling me for years now that I need to relax sometimes. I don’t know why, but it is so hard for me to take “me” time. I have this issue where if I am not doing something that seems legitimately productive to me in some way, shape, or form, all I can think about is what I could or “should” be doing to be productive.
In the last couple months, I think I have learned some VERY valuable life lessons. It seems to me that practically every adult I talk to can remember specific events in their life where they can tell you a specific date, what year in college they were, or how old they were when the event happened. It has always shocked me because I have felt like I would never be able to remember stuff like that. I have also always felt that nothing would ever happen in my life of such significance.
Since the start of my sophomore year I think I have started to understand how people can recall such events. This is turning out to be quite a significant year for me. I honestly think that the events that have happened this year (making my sophomore year significant) have been the result of me taking some time for me (especially second semester).
Last semester I decided that I would only take 16 credits (last semester I took 19. For me, 19 credits wouldn’t be too bad if school was all I had on my plate. With tennis in the mix, however, 19 credits allowed for very little “me” time. I decided to take 16 credits to allow for a little more time for tennis since our season is in the spring. In December I hurt my knee which eventually led to me taking this season off of tennis. I am still on the team but I do not compete. Only 16 credits and much less tennis have allowed tons more time in to my schedule that I am not accustomed to. When I look at the big picture, I am so happy about how things ended up. I have finally allowed myself to live a little. I feel great.
Good for you for taking time for yourself. I'm glad you are happy with your decision. I remember talking to my dad one year about taking the summer off and that I was nervous because it would put me behind. "Behind what?" my dad said. Then it hit me. What is the rush in life about. I do not have to keep up with a schedule. As long as I am happy and living life with a purpose I'll be good. Our parents sure are smart sometimes.
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